Nola Hill

“Emancipate yourself from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds.”

For as long as I can remember, my mind has been enslaved. Since elementary school, I have forced myself to meet other people’s standards, it was a constant battle for me to fit in. I’m even trying to meet my mother’s standards and live up to her expectations. I feel like I’m living her life because of her never-ending need to control every aspect of my life. Lately, I’ve been working on “freeing my mind”. I’m teaching myself to not care about meeting other people’s standards, because I should be comfortable with myself and who I am. This is easier said than done when it comes to dealing with my mother. I love my mother with all my heart, but she is extremely controlling. She has paved her own path for my life and expects me to follow it blindly. I believe she’s starting to see that I’m a headstrong individual and that I will be the person I want to be, not the person she wants me to be. I make my own decisions and I learn from my mistakes. How can I emancipate myself from mental slavery if I can’t even make my own decisions?