I Hate You


Virginia Bates

I miss you.
I really miss you.
I loved you.
I did things for you.
I wrote poems for you
Words I wish you heard before you left..
Why did you leave?
You left me like this.
I tell myself I hate every boy that ever contacts me now.
Because of you, I don’t want anyone else.
I miss you.
I really miss you.
I love you.
I did things for you.
Wish you could do things for me
You felt distant?
Call me
I know we’re distant unlike a virus
But I shouldn’t be the one reaching out to you when I know you’re busy
So why couldn’t you call me?
Text me
I don’t like one sided love
I don’t like feeling like I’m lost… again
You were real to me
You’re the realist relationship I’ve ever been in
I miss you
I don’t know if you’re happy
I don’t know if you’re sad
I don’t even know if you want to talk
I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now
But I hate this
I hate you
but I will love you all over again
Because of you, I’m not the same
Were you tryna make me cry?
Just like her…
I try to make it seem like I’m okay
But the truth is I’m broken inside… again
“My stupid brain thinks that I need you, misleads me all the time”
She tried to worn me
I messed up
I messed up two of the most important relationships to me
My best friend’s
And there’s no way things will ever be the same… again
In the end, the words in my own poems portrayed me as the enemy
Bestfriend, You are…, Fake Mistake, Forbidden, Sunset/Sunrise
I Hate You
I Hate Myself